Today, I simply want to write a love letter to Jesus. I realize a lot of my writing has been expressing myself. I would like to tell Jesus how much I love him. So here goes:
Dear Jesus,
I love you! You are so amazing. I have no words to describe your glory. I am overwhelmed by your grace. I am in awe of your faithfulness and majesty. You are sovereign in my life and to that I am truly thankful. You have never left nor forsaken me, there's no where else I can turn but to you. You've relentlessly pursued my heart as Jacob pursued Rachel. You never gave up on me, even when I spat in your face, when I turned my back on you and your provision. Even as I cursed at you and blamed you for not getting what I felt I deserved, you were preserving me and sustaining me through all the highs and lows of my life and you loved me in my most wretched state, as much as when my heart was most tender toward you. I'm so thankful that as much as I complained about not getting what I deserved you didn't give it to me. The reality is that I deserved death, sorrow, and even eternal seperation from you. When I deserved to be rejected, you chose me and accepted me. When I deserved to be isolated and abandoned, you drew near. When I deserved to be condemned for all the wickedness in my heart and all the sin I committed, you had mercy and forgave me. When I deserved to be left desolate and wanting, you enriched me and filled my cup to overflowing. When I deserved poverty and emptiness, you esteemed me and gave me every spiritual blessing in the heavenlies. When I deserved separation and brokenness, you sealed me by your spirit and made me whole. When I deserved death, you gave me life in abundance. When I deserved endless pain, you brought comfort. When I deserved to be left on my own as an orphan without a home, you adopted me and made me a son and a citizen of heaven. When I thought you had left me on the streets to perish, you were building a place for me in heaven. When I was lost and unfixable, you found me and redeemed me. When I felt like the world was caving in on me and consuming me, you were holding me in your hands. When I deserved punishment, you rewarded me with favor. When the storm shipwrecked me, you calmed the seas and made my way straight. When I had no direction, you had works for me to walk in before the foundation of the world and when I thought I missed out on what I thought I had, you were restoring all that which the locusts ate. When I felt alone and cut off from everyone including you, you were restoring intimacy with me. When my heart was deceitful and wicked, you gave me a new heart. And when all the good that I did was filthy rags in your sight, you gave me and made me the righteousness of Christ.
You are perfection in its finest form. You're in all things and you own all things, Your love and grace is boundless. Your wonder is beyond explanation. When everything in my life was chaos and a mess, you brought stability and carefully articulated all that was my life to work everything for my good, even what I thought was bad. When my thoughts were vain, you renewed my mind. Although my perspective was severely skewed, you gave me yours. In all my times of longing, you were my sufficiency. When I had no strength you empowered me by your spirit. When I couldn't fight to save my life, you made me a soldier and warrior in your army. Everything else pales in comparison to your holiness. You deserve all praise, therefore I sing to you a new song. My heart is overwhelmed with thankfulness for all that you are. Your greatness is too great to fathom. I will worship before you all the days of my life. I could go on and on of your goodness and eternity isn't long enough to describe or behold it. I simply come to you as your servant and bow before you with awe of all that you are. All I can do is throw myself at your feet and say, ''Here I am Lord, do with me as you wish, send me wherever you want to send me. I surrender all of who I am and ask that you reign in every area of my life. For I am Yours and You are mine and nothing can separate us now. I give all that I have and all that I am to you. Let me know your ways oh God, that I may find favor in your sight." Amen!
Yours Truly,
Erik Gaudur
